| I feel like everything is a mess. my grandpa is dying. I guess some how I thought he was immortal since we all thought he was gonna die like five years ago. well its just I cant handle this.. its gonna be fucking christmas.. which Im very broke for my job is giving me no hours. ugh. i thought I was falling for someone pretty hard and suddenly he just stops talking to me like any other fucking boy would. whatever... this month just pretty much just sucks ass.. dont know why im getting so depressed.. fuck it. fuck christmas and dare I say fuck 2007!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| today lol. I just got home from school. went grocery shopping..ate.. and now here im. ugh so my car is breaking down and I gotta fix it.. well first I need the money!!! so hopefully soon you know I got other things to pay as well. but my mom is broke so you know its not helping either.. because she owes me 300. I was suppose to talk to a friend well i guess former friend today about our issues but shes not responding so whatever.. I tried. I had fun this weekend getting hella drunk.. but ya some stuff happened that I kinda wished didnt.... anyhow this weekend is 3d!! I cant wait.. gonna be tight! |
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| and i should prolly go to sleep and I will here in a minute but I just felt like talking to someone. hmmm. Can I ask you this... am I selfish stubborn and bitchy?? I think sometimes Im but I dont think Im wrong on this one. I just wish everything could go back to like a month wait two months ago.. ugh but life is about crazy twists and turns right? If she loves me she will apologize admit she was wrong and beg for my friendship but right now she doesnt give a fuck. so why should i???? ugh anywho told my boss Im quiting she didnt take it too well the bitch wont even talk to me now...whatev oh well night |
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You're out in left field
And lacking interest
You fight the boredom
But it makes no difference
Your mental health, kid
That's what's in question
Keep acting obscure
We'll keep them guessing TAKE CHANCES . .
-tell the truth
-date someone totally wrong for you
-say no
-spend all of your cash
-fall in love
-get to know someone random
-be random
-say i love you
-get angry
-be the first to say i`m sorry
-scare yourself at least once a day
-sing out loud
-smile often
-dance in front of the mirror
-laugh at a stupid joke
-cry
-get revenge
-tell someone how much they mean to you
-let someone know what they are missing
-laugh till your stomach hurts
LIVE LIFE . Friday was off the wall insane.PAR-TAY! And I loved it.. still coming down haha... Me and Annie went and saw saw4 ewww Im not big on my body parts being ripped out.. hmm I got the job!! yay I hope I like it.. you know how you get stuck into something and you think you like it just because you are use to it? thats how Im with my job right now.. I guess content with it... Im putting in my two weeks on Monday..No more restaurant sidework bullshit.. yesss.. so life is slowly getting better.. yes yes yes. I got all the people I need. I gotta work in an hour ugh.. well toodles. |
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Its been way too long.. way way way too long. And to tell you the truth I dont know why I stopped writing this but from now on I'll try and keep up with it. Well lets see I started College at Metro Its alright, I go for like 3 hours four days a week, pretty simple. Everyone pretty much keeps to themselves there, so I have only made a couple new friends. Im still friends with my old high school crew because of my job at VI but Im looking to quit real soon in fact I have a job interview today.. ( crosses fingers..) I just hate my job, it smels, I dont make a real hourly wage, it just sucks being a server.. I love my friends tho they make it worth while. My love life has changed..I think last time I was on here I was still pretty upset over Michael..me and him no longer talk which is good considering what an asshole he is. I got with Thomas.. he was a loser as well.. but the sex was good haha...and recently I met Chris, the most beautiful boy I've laid eyes on. but apperently I wasnt the only one who thought so.. my best friend Vanessa thought so too..they dated behind my back and now me and her are no longer friends.. it really wouldnt have hurt me so much if he hadnt led me on.. he kissed me and junk... the deep convos I thought it was really going somewhere. Anywhoozer Im quite bored and alone and I cant tell you the last time my phone went off.. sad. I've been going to raves/parties/clubs and I love it! I love meeting new people I love being messed up haha.. I know its bad, I know drugs and alcohol are bad.. but I love it it makes me happy for now anyways and I figure as long as I get my homework and work stuff done why shouldnt I be allowed to party?? Im 18!!! Annie has become my best friend I dont know what I would be without this girl but sometimes I feel like shes sick of me being around.. which I can understand but I really think I need new friends.. I dont know.. ugh well I should go pick up my room its a huge mess I bought 400 dollars worth of stuff yesterday.. I know its fucking crazy!! it was a scholarship reinbursment so no its not like Im rich or anything..  |
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